i have four kids. my eldest just turned 18 two weeks ago. it has been my desire (having grown up in a xian home, a ministry brat, and xian school student) to leave room for my children TO CHOOSE for themselves what they believe. they have certainly received some training, some church, some prayers and conversations with me and their dad. but it has been my desire that they would find god and choose to “taste and see” ON THEIR OWN. but let me tell you, they are 10, 13, 15, 18, and it is scary because allowing them to choose, means i have no control. influence yes, but control, no. the churchy culture i was raised in, and see around me, is all about a controlling faith and fear of damnation, but even tho i rant and rave and doubt and kick against harmful religion and idolitrous images of “God,” i do in fact believe in a creator-redeemer. the alternative is dark.

may god’s light woo my children.