OST is closed for business but its spirit survives on my blog.
In an odd way, what you write is beautiful. What we have at base are commitments, judgement, and a varying sense of self. Bitter as you may be, your writing here is part of who you are, a way of mobilizing who you are in the face of narratives that are similar and different. Beauty is not faddish, but it certainly isn’t timeless either—it’s rather stable, yet changing. While I am not claiming that beyond our perception nothing exists, I am saying that there is no way to get outside of our perceptions to test the reality of our claims. Falsification is an ongoing conversation—not a magical method that allows us to get beyond ourselves. Let go of the metaphysical push to get beyond oneself and embrace the existentiality of life.